Thinkin'.

I had one of those reflective moments.  The one where you realize something about yourself and have a whole conversation about it, only to realize later that that whole conversation took place in your head.  It happened when I was reading through my daily blogroll today.  I like reading others' blogs, mainly about home decor and family life.  I think what people do with their lives and how they write about it is interesting.  Heck, I like blogging myself obviously.  However, I realized something today as I was reading about a deck project someone had done.  The secret is out, Kerry and I have been working tirelessly on a deck and seriously cannot wait to blog about it soon.  Yay!  Despite my true excitement and love for our new outdoor space, after reading this particular post I found myself thinking, "It doesn't compare."  I had to stop myself.  What am I thinking?  I have spent the last month working on this project and the hours I put in don't even compare to the hours Kerry has spent.  In an instant my feelings went from, "I am content overjoyed, thrilled, in love with my deck" to "my deck sucks."  It is a sinking, awful feeling.

It took me a moment to realize how ridiculous I was being.  I love so many things about our new deck.  I love that it was built by our own hands.  I love that we waited three years to be able to afford it.  I love that we have hand-me-down furniture.  I love eating dinner there.  I love watching Ona wave to the airplanes.  Simply, I love our new deck.

Yet, in that one moment of comparison I forgot what I truly loved and took something for face value.  Something we do so often.  Never a good thing.

It was a life lesson for me today.  It is something we all know.  That feeling deep, deep down. The desire to be the best, have the best, do the best...  It made me all the more thankful for Jesus who makes us the best.

I came so they can have real and eternal life, more and better life than they ever dreamed of. 

{John 10:10 The Message}

I don't know why this was so meaningful to me today, but just got me thinkin'.